Epiphany

I was bathing when i had an Epiphany. I WILL BE A GOOD PARENT NEXT TIME. i dont care how. Chowxuan told me a story once. about this old man, lets call him Mr A. His son, MR AJ.
MR A treated AJ badly. Hostile to him, harsh words, harsh actions. some similarities i see. if u get what i mean. when Mr A was abt 80 years of age, AJ asked him, "Dad, do you love me?".
His father told him, from young, my parents treated me badly. and so, I do not know how to bring a kid up. Fuck Mr A. What kind of shit excuse.

I certainly feel, MR A just don't wanna try. full of shit excuses. damn that old man. okay, back to me. I feel maybe my parents are better than A's. BUT, they didn't try too. my father's parents were bad to him, but my mom has great parents. and she ain't trying.

I will be a great parent! my kid will be able to tell his/her friends proudly, I HAVE A GREAT PARENT. I am so not going to repeat the same mistake my parents made.

OH YA! i threw all my face away the other day. OMG. seriously. damn. and pet, U ARE SUPER BLURR. hahaha. JANE will elaborate.


JO